** M for Mature.

This made me cry. I suggest you really don’t read it actually, ESPECIALLY if you’ve ever been in love. and extra especially if it didnt work out and you wish it did.

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I hear a knock at my door. Not expecting anyone I cautiously open the door and I’m surprised to see Katie. She’s smiling widely and I can only smile back. She comes in and I’m thankful that my cleaning lady was here earlier in the day to clean up. Katie sits down on my couch and I sit parallel to her in an uncomfortable looking wooden chair. “So hey Katie, what brings you around here?”

“Well, I called Pete and he said that you’d be here so I thought I’d stop over, you know…”

Did I know? I’m not sure if I’m suppose to.

“Yeah well I’m glad you did, I’ve been thinking…” I say not sure if I should continue the sentence.

“I’ve been thinking a lot about that night, you know when we had dinner.” she says this in such a proud and reassuring way. Is it possible that she?

“Listen, Katie I,” but I can’t finish because Katie has gotten up and walked over to my chair and bent at the waist to look at me at eye level and I can’t help it, I lean forward and kiss her, and to my surprise she’s kissing me back.

I stand up to stretch reaching my arms to the ceiling and she moves upright to stand up with me, trying to reach for my hands, which she takes into hers and grips them firmly in her soft and tender palms and Katie’s kissing my knuckles, again and again, 7, 8, 9, 10 times, one for each finger. And I put my arms around her waist and I pick her up and carry her small but strong body into my bedroom and lay her down, ever so gently on the bed making sure as to let her head down easily.

Kissing her tan arms, every inch, with precision, down to her stomach, tonguing her navel while unbuttoning those tight jeans, kissing all the way down to the panty line, looking up to make eye contact and smile as my mouth makes it’s self comfortable with Katie’s body.

Making my way back up, she takes off her shirt, it falls to the floor and I reach around and un-hook her bra with my right hand, my left hand stroking her face and kissing her neck, moving down to her nipples, hard and round, rolling my mouth over them, ever-so-slightly using my teeth to grip and exhaling my hot breath onto those perfectly shaped breasts.

We’re kissing heavily, my tongue in Katie’s mouth, hers in mine, she bites my lip, I moan. Then Katie’s reaching for my zipper, unbuttoning my pants. Effortlessly moving her hand down until she’s gripping me, massaging up and down, my cock growing more and more erect until she pulls my jeans all the way down and I rip off my shirt and we’re both naked; bodies rubbing against each other only making the already hot room hotter and the blankets get thrown to the ground and the ceiling fan is squeaking and my neighbors dog is barking at something floating in the pool and she’s wet. So wet I move into her and we both shutter, my cock inside of her and Katie’s exhaling what sounds like a sigh of relief and I bit down, not too hard on her collarbone. And I’m moving in and out, ever so slowly, making sure to look at her beautifully unblemished face every second, my brown eyes penetrating Katie’s blue eyes.

I’m smiling thinking about the future, a time on the beach when you tripped me and I fell into a sand castle I built for us to live in and about a voice mail you left me telling me about how special I am to you, and about what I’m getting you for your birthday. A time you made me cry because you were in Europe and I was home alone with only your photo and the letters you wrote to me.

I’m thinking all of this as I roll Katie over and she’s on top of me, her brunette hair in her face and she’s constantly moving it back out of her eyes, and I’m gripping those hips and she’s still moving steadily, up and down, up and down. And now the sun’s setting through the window and streams of light come in and break up any inconsistency the shadows might have made and Katie’s moaning, chanting something, my name, again and again and I sit upright and kiss her hard on the mouth her tongue flicks over my dry lips and I turn her over, put those long slender legs over my shoulders and begin to fuck her hard and fast, and she’s screaming, I’m screaming and the look in her eyes says, white fences, two story houses, children, hills, full moons and walking through the country, summer dresses, picnics, eternity.

And I’m coming, I‘m coming, exploding and we’re both shouting and I’m saying “I love you, I love you, oh god, fuck, I love you” and Katie can only scream, such a scream that the neighbors dog is still barking about the noise and we collapse onto each other breathing heavily, and I’m still inside of  her and we kiss, hold that kiss for what seems like forever and she looks up into my eyes and I say her name so only I can hear it and I know, just like she does that this is what makes up life.

And then I’m thinking you are what makes my life and I will never be the same, and that there’s something about us that I can’t put into words and only a look that we share can explain it all and I pull out of her and lay on my back and she rest her sweaty head on my chest and I kiss the top of her forehead and we talk about white fences, children, hills, taking walks under full moons, and eternity. All the while the fan is squeaking over us like an audience clapping in approval and we lay there on top of the sheets for a very long time until its dark and all we hear are crickets and Katie falls asleep in my arms and it’s always as I had imagined it to be.